Tuesday, February 2, 2021

World Of Comedy

From an empirical point of view:

Charles Chaplin
Peter Sellers (The master of characters. It is pure joy to see him work.)
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Rowan Atkinson
Michael Palin
Bill Murray
John Belushi
Benny Hill
Eddie Murphy
Leslie Nielsen
Jim Carrey
Sacha Baron Cohen
Steve Martin
Mike Myers
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Will Ferrel

Saturday, December 26, 2020

Forrest Gump did not hear anything

Why i generally dont like pop rock music? Mostly because every popular tune, for example from America, is overly sappy, lacking the sharp cutting edge. Take example of Fleetwood Macs "Go Your Own Way" and "Little Lies", which both sound "good", but also very cheesy, like songs are written in one sitting based on one simple idea and melody, compressed in 3 minutes. When u though you like the main melody and begin to grind it, after 10 rounds it starts to worn out of energy and become boring, and u start to develop severe headache. Every single main pop song has this same flaw, too simple, too easy. This is why i dont like American pop culture. For example Forrest Gump is very good dissection to American pop culture in general, but when i hear Fleetwood Mac in some point in the movie when Gump is running his run, i almost lose my mind when i realize how shallow whole movie actually is. 

I had serious problems in my teen years finding actual music besides classical music, and spent nightless nights scouring the internet numbing my mind in pop music, but also finding the actual jewel class of music, progressive house, which in some tunes, is actually comparable to brilliance of classical music. Other popular music genres i hate are metal and hip-hop. Those are quite comparable to regular pop-rock how toothless some genres are, but every mass has its redeemer.

 There are only 2 samples where metal music is dangling to a single individual hair:


 

Rap music pretty much is summed up to the brilliance of:
 

While pop/rock is anyway lost, we can always try cradle to: 



Tuesday, December 15, 2020

Commodore (CBM) scrapbook

 This is a scrapbook dedicated to Commodore, its products and culture around it.

Jack Tramiel:

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David John Pleasance was one of managers in Commodore (CBM), and lived/lives pretty magnificent life. U can order the book (Commodore – The Inside Story), which will illustrates Davids life during Commodore era and around it. Great great reading.

https://davidpleasance.com


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C= magazine was Finnish publication for Commodore related stuff. This magazine is only in Finnish language.

http://amiga.unikko.org/C-lehti/

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Bil Herd was an engineer in Commodore and has interesting inside stories from an engineer perspective.

https://www.youtube.com/user/BilHerd

 

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Some random stuff:


 

 
 

Wednesday, November 18, 2020

Career opportunities (Not the movie)

 An example of how i ended up to a graphics designer. I was in vocational institute, where i studied information technology. The class was full of nerds and poseurs, very few were real deal. My turning point from programmer to graphics was the one time when i poked an ant colony. There was this trio of clowns from Kaarina, a place near Turku Finland, who practically were bullies. They bullied one guy mostly, who were once my friend. I decided to balance odds by drawing a caricature one of their blokes. I never understood what they tried to be or achieve, but i remember they all wore similar clothes, drove similar mopeds, who knows they maybe masturbated together, i dont know, but my point was they were classical example of freaks. One of them was tall and skinny, bug-eyed guy, looked like Gollum, who tried to be a bad ass. One of them was silent like Bob and resembled a duck. The last one was real nerve wreck, who probably suffered from extremely bad self-confidence.

I made a caricature of the nerve wreck, and his face in the drawing was just absurd, but quite accurate. When the nerve wreck saw the picture, he totally lost his mind and grabbed me like he was attacking, but in the end he had no balls to do anything, and practically ran away from the class like he was on fire. Later i heard at guidance counselor that he was complaining that i was bringing bad atmosphere to the class, while i said that he was a total bully. There was no consequences or anything, but i received an enlightenment. I have never ever got so much pleasure and joy from somebody in person, who i ripped and teared apart in mind and soul. I felt just powerful and dominant, when i realized that the little drawing made him lose total self-control and sanity, i just saw the path in front of me, where i should go and aim in life. Small things can have greater meanings.

Friday, October 9, 2020

Nocturnal Animals (2016)

 

The story is about ex-lovers, who cant evolve past the past. In one end is the airhead, Susan, who is never satisfied in her life, whatever she chooses or does. She is a drifter. She broke up with the other end, the weakling Edward, who cannot go on with his life after 20 years and still holds a grudge against Susan.

Edward sends a thriller novel to Susan, which practically is a manifestation about feelings/process he went through when Susan broke up with him and she made abortion of his child. The novel is a very serious story and is absolutely great. It is brilliant how the story intertwines together the fictional novel and the reality.

What bothers me the most is the ending, which does not feel immersive. Questions: Was Edward really that weak, that he had to write the novel to express himself and to prove Susan his writing skills? And after 20 years he is still a mess? Was the revenge, leaving Susan at the restaurant, the best possible retribution? He made her love him again, but was that a sufficient punishment?

Both characters are overly immature. I know people in the real world, who are actually this level childish and bitter, who cannot mature enough to let go. From basic psychological understanding, I would have laughed my butts of the bench if somebody tried to pull this on me, like sending an emotional manifestation and then leaving me at a restaurant. Wow, what a comeback, and very forceful revenge.

For movie stand point, the story should have gone beyond the current revenge barrier, maybe more brutal, tragic and violent, maybe going into the horror genre. Maybe some corpses or more psychological torment. I know Susan was not worth it, but neither was Edward. Dumb people (characters), but excellent movie. Well written and masterfully constructed. This was a very pleasant surprise. I liked the cop most, who was more real than anything.

Saturday, September 19, 2020

Game Industry



My passion is games, not only video-games, but all sorts of games. I observe the world through game mechanics, and one can say that life is a game, a kind of brutal action adventure rpg, where there is only one death and zero respaws. It could be a limitation of our perspective in life, that what happens past death is up to the imagination of individuals to have hope for continuity after death. Primary consensus is that death is final and the identity is shredded so new life has an opportunity to change the playground with fresh ideas.

Video-games are the thriving form of interactive entertainment, which has been upcoming and developed rapidly since the 70s. Corporations can have over 100 developers in a team while the 2k era is trending indie development.

I have always wanted to make video-games, but not only some games, but my designs. My passion does not lie on corporate structure, although i dont care what structure is behind a development as far as the project is healthy and developing. I have tried to do games in varied projects and in my solo projects, so far all failed. In a team i have found that if the team has no fertile synergy, or some part of the machine is malfunctioning, the project is in grave danger to fail. That is why i wont ever again take part to a development where i am not in the lead. I need a team of developers under my design and command to make my dreams true. It might sound toxic, but of course team can function normally in their pits, and i wouldnt hold people back, as long as the direction is right. Yes, i want to be a director. I have experience from lots of games and i know what game designs are boring and impotent. I even know pretty fast how to develop ideas further from existing ideas.

Case example could be making new 3d fps in Mega Man X universe using almost the same gameplay elements from Doom Eternal. With the right team and direction, the result would be glorious, and finally the Mega Man X franchise would rise from ashes in a new refreshing package. This is a primary example of professional game designing in a nutshell.

I have tried to make my own games in a solo project using high-end engine like Unreal Engine. What problems i have found is that the project wont develop fast enough, because of the need to maintain some quality. When the development is staggering, motivation is diving and development stalling. It does not make sense to make a project if it cant reach the certain quality pillars in my mind, and it is not even considered to lower standards, because that would definitely hurt my pride and unmotivate further. I would rather not to do any games if the visuals or gameplay implementations are unreachable by myself. This is why i want a team. A team is key to success and i dont want to make a game which looks like a one man job. But i dont want a team consisting unpassionate workers or some corporate climbers, and least some suit producers who have no vision whatsoever and i have to answer these people.

In short, i am not passionate enough to make a game alone. I am also allergic to people who doesnt earn my respect. Why waste life making a game alone when it would never reach certain qualities/standards. I cant program or use tools efficiently, because i guess i lack intelligence. I am also fed up with shovel working in graphics, because i have done it a lot and someone who likes to do it should do it instead of me, so i could focus on drawing horizons and big lines. Why search development team, when all resources are behind suits and corporate bureaucracy, which are irrelevant to game development. How to tell a suit about visions if he probably dont know what i am talking about. In other hand, if there is a suit in game industry who knows lots about games, why would he spare time for me, when he has rush to do his own projects.

Indie development has lots of versatility to offer to make a project, and maybe scouring the Internet would help finding right people. Am i really interested to have that much trouble to dig a bottomless pit when all the greatness that indie game development has offered is in the form of Minecraft. Do i really want to be that muppet? All i can think of is that either u go big with a professional team or stay on the sidelines playing video-games and enjoying life in its simplicity.

Tuesday, February 25, 2020

Copulation vs fist

Is "sex with a woman and cumming" really worth it? My primary directive is to avoid actual sex to avoid having any children. Since there is no 100% protection, the prevention will fail eventually, like condoms and pills. Twisting tits, rubbing nipples and shoving a meat piston in a moldy hole doesnt give that amazing sensation u wouldnt get from a good porn. To replace meat and bones with a video material requires good imagination to get into that setting presented in the picture. Good imagination requires good, immersive and believable porn: Good looking people, realistic dicks and tits for example in a french porn. Boring porn contains some steroid bulls bonking rubber tits.

To score usually takes way too much time and effort. Slowest way is actually have a meaningful relationship with somebody, which means that u have to listen some jabbering in daily basis and really pay attention to somebody. I usually dont have any interest to listen some mundane babble from any girl, because i get extremely bored. If the girl is not even externally pleasant, why even bother?

Fastest way is to go to a bar or a club, or just get a hooker, but that means those places have some disgusting diseases everywhere, or the risk is too high to get some infections. This is why porn exist: U can choose fine chicks from effective catalogue, not having to pay any inconvenience for anybody and settings are perfect for one man adventure in disease free environment, not to mention avoiding risk to get some cherry pregnant.

Some say there is nothing like real deal flesh, but i can say from an experience, which i partially regret, there is nothing so amazing features in sex which cannot be simulated in a mind. It requires good imagination, ability to focus and get absorbed to what is before eyes. U will save time, money and health when investing to a good material, which lasts entire life without any commitments, and u will have a rich collection to choose from.