Friday, September 13, 2024
Modern day wonders
A while ago, I was going to my friend's house. We were supposed to make pizza, and I carried some of the ingredients in my backpack. One of the ingredients was basil, and it emitted a faint odor in the bus. Couple of girls nearby, mature enough to be in their 20s, started to talk about the odor. They did not know where it came from and they started to ball around that it could be a scent of oregano or some other plant, but they eventually got it right that it is basil. I listened to what they talked about. One of the girls came to the conclusion that the smell of basil belongs to the kitchen and definitely not to a public bus. As if the scent is so disturbing to someone who can not handle a pretty pleasantly smelling plant. I reckon that the same girl, if she accidentally farts in her kitchen, does she rebuke herself, that the smell of excrement belongs to the toilet and not to the kitchen. If somebody has a problem with the scent of basil, what other silly problems these people, this mob, actually possess. What is the reasoning?
Another time, I saw from the bus that an elderly was walking along a street and she had these walking sticks. She used the sticks as if they were similar to sports equipment, those you usually see with elderly people, sticks that remind of ski poles. But this old woman had branches from a tree, and you can imagine that those sticks were even naturally bowed to the extreme. It looked funny, that somebody had a bright innovative idea for sports walking sticks. Nothing wrong with that.
One occasion I saw a foreigner, with his friends, at a bus stop. The guy held a cigarette in his hand, but he never inhaled or puffed it. The cigarette was never near his mouth. He just held it in his hand casually, like he was a serious smoker. Imagine being a clown, who wants to raise his masculine image by holding a cigarette, as you can see from old tv commercials. I read from a book (Third Chimpanzee), that holding or smoking cigarettes or associating with other substances in the first place, has something to do with masculinity. It is cool to hold such things in your hand, because it translates to you being tough, like a stereotypical cowboy. Great way to waste money.
Another time I was in a hypermarket, I saw a young guy sitting on a bench. The guy was extremely filthy: His leather jacket was black and brown, fingers were blacked with filth, his face was also covered with filth and he had some piercings. Trousers were worn, backpack was covered with whatever and was laying on the ground. He had a motorcycle helmet, which tells that he was not a junkie or drunkard. He was smoking a cigarette. It occurred to me that maybe he was some sort of mechanic, who works with cars or motorcycles, and maybe he was on his way home. The cigarette also brought to mind that maybe it has to do something with masculine ideas: men are dirty and smoke junk like in old times in a bakery. Men do not give a damn about cleanliness or always wear a worn leather jacket. On the contrary, he did not look masculine from his physical features. He was a feeble looking guy, not muscular and was short, and his clothing and appearance somehow reminded me of a hipster. Some sort of a guy who wants to be out of the mainstream. I do not know. He definitely could not handle a 20 kilo battle ax, that is for sure. Modern day masculine wonders. Icing to the cake was the baby face, smooth facial cheeks, round face, weak jaw, NOT a face like a cinder block or carved from a marble.
Friday, May 3, 2024
Spillover by David Quammen
This book is great for those who want to understand how a spillover happens, especially considering exotic diseases, for example Ebola, HIV, SARS, etc. Spillover is a term to express the threshold of circumstances how a zoonotic disease spills to humans. The aim is to answer questions: when, where and how. It does not dig into the microchemistry or microbiology of certain hot diseases, which is good, because it does not serve the purposes in this case. It does mention some aspects of mathematical equations to forecast an epidemic, and people who invented them. Quammen has done good work to track down researchers and map information around diseases. The main focus in this book is zoonotic diseases.
Fragments or highlights I learned from this book (might contain errors, excuse my memory):
HIV originates from “southern” Cameroon. There is a monkey species which carries SIV with equilibrium state. From there, somehow the monkey has contaminated a chimpanzee population, probably a chimpanzee has eaten a monkey carrying SIV. Chimpanzees have their own epidemic of AIDS. I do not remember which thing spilled the SIV to humans, the chimpanzee or the monkey, but it is for sure that the probable explanation is during a widespread trend of bushmeat. A human has eaten some sort of bushmeat or there has been an accident during a hunt, where SIV blood has gone to a wound of a hunter. It is hard to speculate the precise event, because it is history in a jungle. It is also for sure that HIV has been around in humans since the beginning of 20th century (1908). The least probable theory is that HIV is some kind of lab product, but it is mentioned that HIV could have been spread during polio vaccines in Africa during 1950-1960, because of using expensive reusable needles and “growing” vaccines in some sort of cell culture of chimpanzees, which is contaminated. AIDS 'previous name was (suggested) GRID, Gay Related Immune Deficiency, but soon people realized that there are other routes to contaminate a body, and not only gay people, the GRID was abandoned. HIV-1 and HIV-2 have multiple groups/variations. HIV/SIV is a retrovirus, which drills into the cell dna and embeds the payload in there.
Zoonotic spillovers are a result of human “breakout”. Humans are the biggest breakout in the entire history of the earth. The biomass of people is only the latter of the biomass of livestock, which is also the result of humans. Why all these exotic killer diseases emerge is only because humans are disrupting the balance of nature. People cut down forests, spread living spaces, invade the habitat of other species, which enforces other creatures more closely to the human population. People eat almost anything in certain parts of the world. Ebola mainly spills, because somebody drags out a diseased corpse of an ape from the forest and a village will eat the whole thing. There are mines in caves, which contain habitat of bats, which contaminate the caves with guano, and miners of course get contact with these feces. Bats are probably the most common reservoirs of exotic diseases, because bats species cover ¼ of all mammal species. There are over 1600 species of bats in the world. In China, there is Wild Flavor trend, which means that people would like to eat anything they can get their hands on. In wet markets, Chinese stacks all sorts of creatures together without any regulations or responsibility, and all these excrements circulating from bats and other creatures, will create pandemics like SARS.
Some livestock farms, let say in Europe, consist for example pigs or goats. Pig is a creature, which oinks, farts and does such a heavy duty ventilation, that in a case of epidemic in the pig farm, can amplify a virus and spread the virus airborne. With certain weather conditions, the virus can travel en masse vast distances to a town or a city, causing zoonosis in the human population. Same can happen in goat farms, when goats live in certain conditions where a pathogen can gain superiority. This is again a result of human culture.
The book was written in 2012, and it tried to speculate about the next big pandemic. In the end section the speculation is around certain diseases like influenza, but it also mentions coronaviruses, which eventually happened. SARS was preceding coronavirus.
It is an absolutely great read.
Self-reflection, if that matters:
Reading the book on many bus trips to work, I often watched how grossly people actually maintain their sanitary. 6 of 10 people touch their faces at least once in that particular bus trip. At least 1 or 2 of 10 people had to constantly touch their faces. Somebody actually dug his nose, put the finger in his mouth and after that he shaked something to the ground, and next he was touching the stop button. One guy had to stroke his hair constantly, because the hair-do has to be whatever it had to be. One girl poked her eyeball with her bare finger. One guy stroked his girlfriend's hair, and his fingers were utterly brownish, probably from a filth, and the guy was the whitest caucasoid there is. I understand that it is good to have an exposure to something to maintain the resistance of the body, but there should be at least some decency. I think that this is again a feature of human breakout. I am not saying that most people are idiots, but most people certainly lack self-preservation and discretion. The thinking of causality and pure ignorance. If we think of epidemics/pandemics, the reason is purely in here. There is a reason why in local supermarkets people are standing in the middle of the corridor. There is a reason why somebody sneezes and the virus disperses in the middle of the corridor of that supermarket. There is a reason why people are walking in the middle of the corridor, wandering around not knowing that there are other people around. As the book said, evolution has no purposes, only results.
Fragments or highlights I learned from this book (might contain errors, excuse my memory):
HIV originates from “southern” Cameroon. There is a monkey species which carries SIV with equilibrium state. From there, somehow the monkey has contaminated a chimpanzee population, probably a chimpanzee has eaten a monkey carrying SIV. Chimpanzees have their own epidemic of AIDS. I do not remember which thing spilled the SIV to humans, the chimpanzee or the monkey, but it is for sure that the probable explanation is during a widespread trend of bushmeat. A human has eaten some sort of bushmeat or there has been an accident during a hunt, where SIV blood has gone to a wound of a hunter. It is hard to speculate the precise event, because it is history in a jungle. It is also for sure that HIV has been around in humans since the beginning of 20th century (1908). The least probable theory is that HIV is some kind of lab product, but it is mentioned that HIV could have been spread during polio vaccines in Africa during 1950-1960, because of using expensive reusable needles and “growing” vaccines in some sort of cell culture of chimpanzees, which is contaminated. AIDS 'previous name was (suggested) GRID, Gay Related Immune Deficiency, but soon people realized that there are other routes to contaminate a body, and not only gay people, the GRID was abandoned. HIV-1 and HIV-2 have multiple groups/variations. HIV/SIV is a retrovirus, which drills into the cell dna and embeds the payload in there.
Zoonotic spillovers are a result of human “breakout”. Humans are the biggest breakout in the entire history of the earth. The biomass of people is only the latter of the biomass of livestock, which is also the result of humans. Why all these exotic killer diseases emerge is only because humans are disrupting the balance of nature. People cut down forests, spread living spaces, invade the habitat of other species, which enforces other creatures more closely to the human population. People eat almost anything in certain parts of the world. Ebola mainly spills, because somebody drags out a diseased corpse of an ape from the forest and a village will eat the whole thing. There are mines in caves, which contain habitat of bats, which contaminate the caves with guano, and miners of course get contact with these feces. Bats are probably the most common reservoirs of exotic diseases, because bats species cover ¼ of all mammal species. There are over 1600 species of bats in the world. In China, there is Wild Flavor trend, which means that people would like to eat anything they can get their hands on. In wet markets, Chinese stacks all sorts of creatures together without any regulations or responsibility, and all these excrements circulating from bats and other creatures, will create pandemics like SARS.
Some livestock farms, let say in Europe, consist for example pigs or goats. Pig is a creature, which oinks, farts and does such a heavy duty ventilation, that in a case of epidemic in the pig farm, can amplify a virus and spread the virus airborne. With certain weather conditions, the virus can travel en masse vast distances to a town or a city, causing zoonosis in the human population. Same can happen in goat farms, when goats live in certain conditions where a pathogen can gain superiority. This is again a result of human culture.
The book was written in 2012, and it tried to speculate about the next big pandemic. In the end section the speculation is around certain diseases like influenza, but it also mentions coronaviruses, which eventually happened. SARS was preceding coronavirus.
It is an absolutely great read.
Self-reflection, if that matters:
Reading the book on many bus trips to work, I often watched how grossly people actually maintain their sanitary. 6 of 10 people touch their faces at least once in that particular bus trip. At least 1 or 2 of 10 people had to constantly touch their faces. Somebody actually dug his nose, put the finger in his mouth and after that he shaked something to the ground, and next he was touching the stop button. One guy had to stroke his hair constantly, because the hair-do has to be whatever it had to be. One girl poked her eyeball with her bare finger. One guy stroked his girlfriend's hair, and his fingers were utterly brownish, probably from a filth, and the guy was the whitest caucasoid there is. I understand that it is good to have an exposure to something to maintain the resistance of the body, but there should be at least some decency. I think that this is again a feature of human breakout. I am not saying that most people are idiots, but most people certainly lack self-preservation and discretion. The thinking of causality and pure ignorance. If we think of epidemics/pandemics, the reason is purely in here. There is a reason why in local supermarkets people are standing in the middle of the corridor. There is a reason why somebody sneezes and the virus disperses in the middle of the corridor of that supermarket. There is a reason why people are walking in the middle of the corridor, wandering around not knowing that there are other people around. As the book said, evolution has no purposes, only results.
Friday, March 22, 2024
Science VS Religion
When you prowl the Internet, you can occasionally see people arguing about science versus religions. Usually both delegates have pretty bad arguments: The science guy tries to explain what science is, while the religion guy tries to gain support from quotes of religious texts.
Religions try to explain the existence, and in a way try to link the progress in a life to the afterlife. Religions are works of imagination, no matter how strong an individual tries to believe or is impressed by a story. Religions are a pre-science way to understand or explain the happenings in the world, but most importantly ways to give a life a purpose. There have been beliefs probably for millions of years. People tried to explain why some disease killed somebody or why lightning struck a tree. Beliefs and religions come and go. Some more sophisticated religions contain references to real life. For example, no doubt Jesus lived, but was he really “a magician” or a miracle maker? It is more likely that he was an extremely influential person with pretty good insights to life, but everything else around it is probably fabricated or misunderstood. People tend to have an ability to magnify the real happenings and fill empty spaces to have an uniform story to pass on to next generations. It is like a habitual trait. People need structure. Trying to connect the existence, reason for it and real life occurrences to one explanation is kind of far fetched. If somebody dies, why does it have to be a will of a god? It could also be that the god had nothing to do with anyways, so you are practically blaming the god for no reason, which is heresy and blasphemy?
I have never read any religious texts completely, mainly because the executions are outdated or themes are kind of childish. I started to read the bible, but I had to stop when there started to come out a list of some kind of family tree of a guy(?). I actually have something better to do in my life, than read something, which does not have any actual relevance to reality, or the reference is long gone. It reminded me as if I started to read a phone book, and from that trying to understand life. I believe that many religious texts have good intentions and life advice when reading between the lines. But so does reading a phone book, which tells plainly that there are just people and this is the list of life? People tend to explain things that they do not understand. There are also psychological factors that can affect the perception of an individual. Somebody was probably in psychosis or on drugs, who knows?
Where is the problem? The problem is when a person tries to convert another person or push predilections onto somebody else. Is it right to exploit a person who is vulnerable to believe whatever is there and sounds good? Is it right to enforce beliefs to somebody who does not want to believe? Same goes another way, is it right to enforce thoughts on somebody who does want to believe? Does this actually mean that your religious beliefs are wrong if you are trying to enforce your beliefs? Is it evidence that if there are multiple religions, they are probably all wrong? In the end, it could even escalate to violence, which is proven many times in history. Anyhow, religious texts are always prone to be exploited by somebody who is narcissistic, psychopathic and power hungry, or more commonly self-righteous. This is where religions are at their weakest. People like to prove that another person is wrong. It is a continuous loop, which does not prove anything.
Thoughts. People are built from thoughts? It is normal to have thoughts and feelings, that is what makes us people, humans. This is how science explains life. Science is a key to everything, to understand the lock of existence, is probably the most religious way to explain science. Science can be right or wrong, but the difference to religions is that science evolves, innovates and reforms its concepts and implementations. Science never claims to be the ultimate truth, as some religions do, but it is the most sophisticated tool to understand “the truth”. For example, religious beliefs and texts are built around predefined concepts, there are boundaries. During the test of time, either the religion will disappear, it will stay as a hollow shell for a tradition, or the texts will get adjusted. By adjustment, I mean somebody uses his power to interpret religious beliefs/texts to match the purpose of the belief and religious agenda to the current ambiance or attitude of the population, as if trying to rebrand the old ways. Religion is prone to be mismanaged by a man, and a vector can be made that it is a will of a man. Religion is the feeling of presence of a supernatural force, and a journey is to honor by worshipping it and finding markers leading to the righteous path. From a “scientific” point of view, it is completely normal to have feelings, but the difference between right and wrong is how extreme these feelings are driving an individual to a path, how ill the methods are to enforce thoughts. Probably the most common sense method to spot an individual, who has lost the way of the god, is the one who does not understand that there are other people around, who believe in other realities. Belief is an individual feeling and it should gather around people who believe the same way, not enforce it on those who do not want to. This is what divides a man from right and wrong, ill and sane.
Science is an idea of thinking in the context of finding evidence. Classical fallacy between religious and scientific people in the Internet is an argument similar to this: Triggering effect could be (not making a remark that it is always a fault of a religious individual) that an religious individual brings in something religious to the table in the subject of, let say, sports. We can even take more specific subjects, for example Mixed Martial Arts and Khabib Nurmagomedov, and his glorious success in life. A religious person says that the success of Khabib is because of a god. Scientific guy says that there is no god. Then the interaction between these guys takes a lane of cluttered perceptions of realities, which actually proves the point. Religious guy says, which is actually something that somebody has said, that if you can not touch or see gravity, it does not exist. The last notion from a religious “proof” is probably the simplest rhetoric I have ever seen, but it is also proof of the quality of the mob. The mob means a generic population who can not think more sophisticatedly, probably lack education, has limited understanding, but still have to take part in an argument. The argument keeps going on and on in the same lane of nonsense, both guys trying to poke each other with some derogatory ideals, in simplest terms, just to hurt each other. And it is not just only about this case sample, but it is probably happening widely in the whole Internet. Is it really surprising? No, actually it is not, you can see the same quality of talk in any local pub around cheap beer (or other substance) in any part of the world. Or the kids in the local kindergarten having an argument over who has a stronger father. The point is, if you are a believer of science, you are probably wrong. If you are a zealot of a religion, you are probably wrong. Why is it so hard to keep some slack in your thinking? Why is it important to always be right and somebody else has to be wrong? I think the key for thinking is the classical phrase, I know that I do not know. Let people believe what they want to believe. Let people experience life on their own terms.
Another case study was when I had an argument with a person who had a background in science and in scientific institutions. The argument was about the subject of intelligence and motivation. The subject raveled around a board game. I said something similar that I do not have the intelligence to beat my opponent, and the opponent said that there is only motivation. The argument evolved a little while and the person deemed that the only difference between people is the motivation, in his words people are pretty much equal, for example in intelligence. I tried to illustrate the intelligence part by taking an example of Magnus Carlsen, probably the best chess player in the world. With simplified terms and Magnus Carlsen, I tried to explain that intelligence is a physiological trait, determined by brain tissue, which derives a usage of memory and pattern recognition. The other person insisted on his beliefs, and explained that “motivation is a complex thing”. I do understand that there is a motivation, which is the defining factor between a person who has motivation and the other who has not. But in my opinion, motivation is only a beginner attribute. It is not a magical well, which will give a person supernatural powers to exceed the physiological definitions. Motivation can be measured by time. With that time, you can train, study, focus and do whatever you believe helps to achieve victory, even cheating. If there are two individuals who have the same amount of motivation, the only separating things are the physiological traits and sometimes luck. That is why there are rankings, for example in chess or intelligence quotients. I could not ever beat Magnus Carlsen in chess, even if I practiced 24 hours a day for the rest of my life, with the best help I could get in the world. This is the fact. Even my psychologist said in my evaluation that my intelligence is lower than most people have, mainly because of poor memory usage, and I can not do anything about it. But the other fact in this argument, is that the other person is not familiar with the competitive world: He does not like or play video games, he does not watch sports or he has never taken part in any competitive sports. Practically he did not have a perspective to the subject at all, which is why he believes this way. We happened to play a board game, and the argument got him naked, even though he is a very bright and intelligent person. I did not start bickering about it much, I just let him believe what he knew. Nothing I could do about it. There is a darkside, though. Some people purposely mask their achievements under the motivation, even if it is obvious that they are cheating, for example in the competitive bodybuilding business. Substances are “illegal” in sports, so it is good to have a chance to give the audience false impressions of what is possible and what is not.
Saturday, March 9, 2024
The Life
What is life? Life is a progress of evolution to mold the future of organisms for greater existence and survival. But what about individuality? Does life have a purpose for a unit? It surely feels extremely personal experience, considering how sinister and dangerous our surroundings are. Can you really trust anything? Can you trust a fellowship? To some extent, yes, considering friends and family, but does it really give consolation to the grim dark fate we all are going to face? Absolutely not, of course if you are expert at ignoring it, then yes. What about the status of your life, does it matter?
I am a narcissist, who is working extensively to suppress the inner stem of vanity. I have always wanted to be the best of the best, to be a legendary or at least elite on something. Usually when observing other people, there are lots of people who triumph and some do not. In my case, it is somewhat sadistically hilarious to observe my own life goals to be failures, and actually see how these failures feel in contrast to an extremely narcissist tendency of craving for excellency.
When I was a child, I wanted to be the best ice-hockey player, and I was pretty good at skating and fast for using a hockey stick, but I never had a chance to play in an actual team. The reality check was the individuals who were playing in actual teams, who could beat me in it by physical profiles and skill. I always played solo, while hockey is about team play. I am glad I did not pursue it, because I played for myself, not for the team.
Later years I wanted to be the best at arts: drawing, painting or digital arts. The real fuel for my purpose was the reality that I managed to get into an arts academy, which was hard for me, but it actually deepened my delusions of being an influential figure in the arts. It was a great feeling though, to feel that this is it, I actually found it, I have a divine purpose, this is the sign and everything is possible between earth and sky. The signs were already from early childhood, everybody praised my artistic skills in paper and everybody supported it in school and home. But there was always a looming menace in the background. What if somebody is better, what are the odds? There was actually a person who was better than me in my childhood, who was technically better, mainly because he practiced more than I did, while I merely practiced in school when I had to and rarely in my free time. I was jealous of the opponent, but he was a good guy and I actually silently venerated him best I could in my narcissistic head.
In the arts academy, the self importance got a little bit out of hand. While I was there, while working really hard, my ego grew and grew, and I actually started to build a vision of being an elite “player”, maybe even a legendary artist among the greatests. Was the entry to the arts academy a divine sign or was it an odyssey? Yes, it was an odyssey, a zany trip to delusions. I had skills, but only in a class of thousands of other artists in the world, not including those who are actually even better. How did I know? The reality check was that nobody is interested in my work. I tried to seek display time in various galleries, but they were not interested. “The national gallery” said that I need to go through a ladder of lesser galleries and build some sort of CV. I asked from a couple of lesser galleries, but some never answered or there were time tables. From these, I made a quick judgment, that if my work would have made an impact or it would have had any artistic value, somebody would have paid attention. Even though the sample (galleries) was generally quite small, I drew the quick conclusion that nobody is interested. I understand that building an artistic profile might require lots of work, but at that point the well was already exhausted.
Does art need recognition? In my world, yes. What is the point of living if there is no grandeur? The life support of an artist, in my opinion, is that to produce art it stems from a well of motivation, and the well is filled by response and admiration of an audience. My well is depleted and all I can do is just to quit, because it was all about an odyssey. I had no grand plan for what other prosperous people had. The bone that is left is probably the evolutionary purpose. Just to acknowledge it and focus on death, because that is what life is about. To figure out death? Well I am pretty sure, with my way of life, I will not die within ten years. But there are lots of environmental effects which affect the end result quite drastically: diseases, pollution and people. My empirical view is that my genetic makeup is quite ordinary, so all these hazards have quite a good impact. I am pretty sure I will die in 20 or 30 years, although I want to live at least a little bit more than 40 years from now. Why? To test the time and evaluation.
Is it quite hard to sit down, look and see, to probe death for 20 to 40 years? Well, yes it is, at least for those whose interests are elsewhere. My current interests are in figuring out death, how and when it comes, because that is the way to be prepared. I am currently 38 years old, and I am fairly sure that my death is coming after 20 years, because of environmental effects (pollution and people). The point is not figuring out what is becoming after death, because that is just a waste of imagination (religion and other mumbo jumbo). The fact is that there have been people for millions of years on earth, and other life forms, and when I am dead, there will be others after me. Probably there will be blackness or incarnation, who knows, the identity is shredded and I do not exist anymore, and it is actually good, because my life had no purpose or grandeur. After my death, nobody remembers me, same as nobody remembers a person somewhere 2 million years ago. What is the point of sit and see? The point is to be prepared for becoming wrath, to be ready to die, to accept the horrors of losing self-preservation, losing the control of your life. Some say that “enjoy your life as long as it lasts”, but that is just a variation of attitude, something to do for someone who doesn't care or can not focus, or who is afraid of thinking about it (death).
Would it be easier to do a suicide? Practically yes, but if there is a creator, who tests you? Not referring precisely to any Abrahamic religion or other forms of imagination. It is just good to keep in mind that if there is something that tries to tell your purpose, and somehow guides you through life, and ending your life prematurely, would be a waste of the individual grand plan, and would be punishable by that creator. That is why death is something to fear, something to not take lightly. How to die? It is about preparing the mind for an equilibrium. You constantly know that you are inhaling toxic air (fibers, heavy metals, dusts, particulates, microbes, gasses …), all contributing to your death. It is 90% likely that you will die in a grand war. It is all about conquering fear. When you are in a battlefield, and a carpet bomb hits, you can close your eyes and accept it, because you knew this would be it.
Are these symptoms of loneliness? Would love save a lonely, depressed wanderer? It is surely something to do. Raising a family is a work, to generally waste your thoughts for. I do not generally believe in love, because it is a narcotic, to be dependent on something, like that would be the purpose of life, while it actually is not. Death is the purpose of life? An offspring is a good motivational, evolutionary concept for an individual who believes in it, but it does not save you from your doom. Also, it doesn't matter who breeds, because there would probably be someone who breeds anyway, and it does not have anything to do with you personally. Some people, like politicians or religions, these heretics of life, like to affect other people's lives, because it bothers them that you do not believe like them. It is a consolation against loneliness, that people gather around to feel unity in a dystopian world. Still, the individual life and death is a personal voyage. In other words, death comes within a person, while life comes outside of a person. Cynicism can be described as a great shield for defending fate. It is a heavy burden, but it is all you have in a lonely trip in a chaotic world, and it will ensure your safe journey to the gates of doom.
Wednesday, November 15, 2023
Bus Driver’s Syndrome
Yesterday I was on the way home from work, and the transportation was a public bus. You might think that the bus driver's job is rather simple, or I imagined it was: a bus driver drives a bus safely, not causing problems and dangerous situations in the traffic, and ensures safety of passengers by driving composedly. Usually the bus is required to stop on the front end of a bus stop to ensure that other buses can park at the same stop. The bus driver drives a bus and handles the transaction of fees accordingly and does not editorialize what people are going in and out, unless there is a problem caused by a passenger. It is not the driver's business what age, gender, race or social status the passenger is.
Apparently even a bus driver's job, which is not the most prestigious or hardest in the world, can be too difficult to handle for some people. And I do not mean the driving part, but how a driver should handle the social aspect of the job. I have seen lots of different drivers, some can handle the job how it should be and some think that their personality traits should be brought or reflected to the job and professionalism. Yesterday I was at a bus stop waiting 15 minutes early. Couple of people appeared during the waiting period. I was waiting on the front end of the stop and others were aligned accordingly. The bus came, instead of driving to the front end of the bus stop, the driver decided to halt at the midsection of the stop. This meant that the waiting line composition did not matter anymore. People started to go inside the bus and as soon as the first customer went inside, the driver started instantly rambling, with an excessively loud tone, about how he decided to take the last customer first leaving the first last. He was so proud of his usage of power that he continued to babble about it with an overly jovial tone and constantly tried to innovate simple jokes from such an event. Jokes simply circulated around the misfortune of people who waited longer than others, and he managed to get some satisfaction from it. I tried to understand the situation from the angle of if I am a humorless person, or is the situation just absurd. Both angles do have a sense of humor and childish fun, but then I realized that there is a mundane depth in society.
People with a slightest chance to express their sadistic tendencies, will take the opportunity to act accordingly. Sadism does not have to be serious on a scale to have consequences, but it reminds of certain traits in human behavior. If there is a slightest gray area, which is not regulated by law, order, rules and enforcement, an individual with a deprived sense of morality and ethics, will always chronically probe the holes to gain personal interests, even if they are something small, in this case teasing unknown people for his own amusement. The main reason why some people are degenerated, is the fact of lacking education. Bus driver's license does not require complex studies, which are in universities. Biggest demographic employed in the job are probably having some lesser education. This means that when the education is lacking philosophical and sociological studies, the individual is in danger of being automatically left behind on social development, unless the person is extensively studying in his spare time.
To counter the behavior of degenerated people on the job, is to have strict rules even in the smallest details. Outlines of the bus drivers protocol could/should be: The driver drives the bus to the utmost front end of a bus stop to ensure the integrity of the passenger waiting line and making room for other buses to arrive. The driver handles the fee transactions accordingly and does not act anything extra to decelerate the prediction of the route. The driver withholds inner opinions of others, politics and religion, and does not give out any prejudice regarding gender, race or age. Driver concentrates fully on the traffic and does not entertain passengers at the expense of their safety. The driver needs to maintain professionalism, even if it needs authoritarian outlines.
To undermine the previous text and add a juicy ending to it, we can think of the demographic of people in a public bus. Stereotypical bus has a layout, which is divided into two parts, back and front halves, divided with a middle door. Usually the back side attracts people with sociological problems: junkies, drunks, teens and miscellaneous with attitude problems. The front attracts mostly old people, young children and fat individuals.
Constant trend in a public bus is that when a passenger leaves a bus, he/she yells something like “thanks” to the bus driver. Some manage to actually scream it and some just settle for a faint wail. It probably should serve a purpose to be a compliment for the bus driver for the service, but actually it is only a remark for the passenger him-/herself for a kind gesture, sort of a vague narcissistic rite. The proof is that most of the time the “thanks” is so muffled that the driver can not hear it, and the fact the driver usually doesn't care, because of apathy from the mileage. It mimics a rite of good manners, even though the customer paid for the trip and the bus driver only does his/her routine job. Funny thing is the fact that the bus driver is going to be on the job and route, no matter how many kind gestures there are or aren't. The bus serves a purpose transporting people on the route, not serving people itself and their emotions, although the bus driver and the occupation belong to the customer service. It is the same as if a person buys food with his/her own earned money, cooks it alone, eats it alone and at the end of it thanks him-/herself for such an effort. Completely useless gestures.
Sunday, October 29, 2023
A Perfect Human
A Perfect Human
How to specify a perfect human being? Since there is no pattern, this is just a hypothetical thinking, which is hilarious.
Perfect human beings excel in every field in life: Art, Science, Sports and Social.
In Sports, an individual can sustain a relatively apt amount of muscle and endurance to maintain the ability to perform at least 3 kilometers in the Cooper test. An individual has a natural ability to orient to tactical games, like Ice Hockey and European Football, and excel better than most of the people. He/She has better cellular activity than most has.
In Science, an individual masters advanced concepts of physics and chemistry, and can form complex algorithms in mathematics. Using scientific concepts, he/she can engineer solutions to current retardant problems. There is no problem orienting thinking to new logical instruments like programming languages. In economy and finance, it is possible to detect flaws in current systems and fabricate new ideas. An individual can write coherent, analytical texts relying on scientific purposes.
In Art, an individual can write fiction while understanding concepts of existing entertainment, but also innovating to unknown themes. A person can read visual arts through theory. He/she can control paint brush to form color areas to form complex morphologies, including different lighting patterns, compositions and themes. A person can use pencils to draw lines, which will craft complex lighting patterns, compositions and themes. An individual can play various instruments and can dissect compositions to sophisticated entities.
In Social, he/she understands the concept of life, life and death. There is no selfish need to pursue happiness and success at the expense of others. An individual has a higher level of empathy, and can grasp with ease various social situations. He/she understands that power, money and control is vanity. An individual knows that he/she does not know, therefore he/she is just equal to the others. A person is immune to beliefs.
How to specify a perfect human being? Since there is no pattern, this is just a hypothetical thinking, which is hilarious.
Perfect human beings excel in every field in life: Art, Science, Sports and Social.
In Sports, an individual can sustain a relatively apt amount of muscle and endurance to maintain the ability to perform at least 3 kilometers in the Cooper test. An individual has a natural ability to orient to tactical games, like Ice Hockey and European Football, and excel better than most of the people. He/She has better cellular activity than most has.
In Science, an individual masters advanced concepts of physics and chemistry, and can form complex algorithms in mathematics. Using scientific concepts, he/she can engineer solutions to current retardant problems. There is no problem orienting thinking to new logical instruments like programming languages. In economy and finance, it is possible to detect flaws in current systems and fabricate new ideas. An individual can write coherent, analytical texts relying on scientific purposes.
In Art, an individual can write fiction while understanding concepts of existing entertainment, but also innovating to unknown themes. A person can read visual arts through theory. He/she can control paint brush to form color areas to form complex morphologies, including different lighting patterns, compositions and themes. A person can use pencils to draw lines, which will craft complex lighting patterns, compositions and themes. An individual can play various instruments and can dissect compositions to sophisticated entities.
In Social, he/she understands the concept of life, life and death. There is no selfish need to pursue happiness and success at the expense of others. An individual has a higher level of empathy, and can grasp with ease various social situations. He/she understands that power, money and control is vanity. An individual knows that he/she does not know, therefore he/she is just equal to the others. A person is immune to beliefs.
Monday, April 10, 2023
Master Game Design Study
A retrospective view of my attendance in the educational system in Finland. Well, not necessarily to Finland schools only, but can be perceived as a global trend, though perhaps not in China or Germany. This part takes on my view of Aalto University, which is branded as a university, but it contains elements of a polytechnic institute. It is nowadays hard to tell which is a university or polytechnic assembly, because everything is commercialized. I tried to get into the masters program of game design, which sounded cool, but the reception was kind of awkward in the game place. This happened over 10 years ago, and has haunted me ever since, mainly because I got disqualified and the disappointment of such a “prestigious” school. I was already graduating in my bachelors in Arts Academy of Turku, where teachers had this vague childish battle of politics and power. After that, my “career” took a sudden stop and changed my view of pursuing ladders in the corporate world.
The game design programme contained an entrance examination. First phase was about doing some qualification tasks, literary and some game design documents, which needed to be done with some preliminary guides. I dont remember what the tasks were about, except one, which was about something to do with designing a board game with a theme of jealousy. I did the tasks, posted them and later got into phase two, which was a visitation to the school where there was an interview by various people. I dont know who these people were, i cant remember was there any introductions at all, but if there were and I dont remember the titles. Only interviewer i do remember vaguely was probably a leader of the whole board, who resembled a poor mans Tom Hall, I mean mainly by external composition. He had this weird obsession to keep a time in every phase of the interview. If time was running out he had to make a notification from it. I mean the interview was already 30 minutes late by the interviewers, because I remember I played Nintendo DS for a long time in the “lobby” waiting my turn. Why do they punish interviewees, if they cannot keep the integrity of their schedule? They should plan these sorts of things more carefully and prepare some buffer time for each interview. There was no rush for any of these guys, because the whole school was almost empty. All the classrooms were empty with massive amount of computers sitting still.
Well, my view of game design as a study subject in a university is pseudoscience. There is no scientific formulation of how to make a good game. Actually many legendary games are written, from a conceptual level, by people who did their own thing and tried new ideas, without any university specialization to the subject. There is no study which speculates the success of a certain idea or concept, or at least if there is, it seems to be a problem nowadays. Why is it important to have a university level degree to design a game? To know what works and what does not? Isnt this common sense? All you need to do is to play a lot of video-games, analyze what did you like and didnt. To have a course to talk with some university level jargon about what works and doesnt, is just a waste of time and resources for everybody, school and students. I have never heard of a successful game, which is formulated by specialized personnel from a masters degree of game design, which would have made an imprint to the industry. If there is, i wouldnt want to heard about it, because it is done by run in the mill opportunistic excel corporate climbers just to make quick cash. Game design is a calling and only those can do interesting concepts and executions, who actually play a lot of video-games and have deep knowledge of actual experience from start to finish of a game. There is just no way around it. Nobody can teach what specific games are all about and how innovate ideas further. If you do have a great concept, the least thing you want to do is give it to a corporation or an institute, so they can take credit from it.
How did this show in the Interview of Aalto University? During the whole interview, we never discussed anything about what makes a good game. Not a single peep about great game design, or anything about existing games.I had a playable demo of a game, which we made in a group of people, and when I showed it to the interviewing board, we never talked about it. Actually, a couple of these guys looked like they did not understand what they were seeing, like this was the first time they ever saw actual gameplay footage, and our game was just a humble shooter in third person. They had no interest whatsoever in the subject. The central topic circulated on how the student is able to dedicate his time to the school. I understand that u have a commitment to the subject, but it is too much to ask to serve the purpose of a school. Schools serve people. The idea is to cultivate a students abilities to innovate and make something in his life. Not the other way, where school objects a student as a pawn to promote a school. The irony here is that the game design degree did not know what they were talking about on the basis of the interview. Since we are dealing with pseudoscience, there is no way that there is a point at all that the whole line of study exists, or maybe it has a purpose for climbing a corporate ladder, when everybody expects you to have no uniqueness.
There is a proof. Two guys who I met briefly at somewhere in the association of the Arts Academy of Turku, who actually got into game design in Aalto at the same time of qualification process. One guy was this hot shot from the USA, who loved to hear his own voice. He had to force his notion onto everything that people did and he had to express himself constantly. It does not fit in a room full of Finnish people. It is cool to have a passion for the subject, but there is also reticence and discretion to form a great person and consider other people. The most awkward thing was these constant notions to his wife, which was embarrassing and made people sick. It is a funny joke at one time, after that it is worn out.
The other guy was a senior alumni from my line of study in bachelors. He was this hip guy, who did not care about other people at all, and this immature attitude all the time. One time he was teaching some nonsense and we had a field trip somewhere. Map was on the canvas pointing to the location and I asked where the location was. He and a couple fellow students laughed and this alumni said that the location is on the map. Well, their laugh ceased when I said I cannot see to the other side of the room, obviously because I am myopic. Well atleast i tasted a little bit of embarrassment from their faces, but later I did not have any respect for this guy and tried to avoid him as much as possible. The delicious part was that his graduation work, which is supposed to show talent and skills, was so embarrassingly bad that I have ever seen such bad student work. It was a Flash animation, with some noisy music typically for a person in puberty, and the whole animation was trashley done. The narrative had no point and the whole execution yells how the maker ever got this far, now looking back how on earth he ever got to the game design masters. Answer is quite obvious from both of these cases: You can talk your way around anything nowadays, without skills or talent. You just need to say the right words. That bothers me the most. Watch JoeyBToonz in Youtube, if you wanna know what i mean.
Saturday, October 22, 2022
Life and Death
Life and Death
What aches my head about life and death: When a human is wasting his life? Does working in a meaningless job, having a career or blatantly doing nothing, have anything to do with anything? We, humans, are the same matter as a swamp frog or microbes in a mud? Actually we are distinctly more similar to fungi than to plants? Is jizzing in a fertile love companion the only reason for life? As an individual and a proof, my kin goes backwards millions of years, so is it a miracle that i or anybody else exist today, even though earth is overpopulated?
I am watching a painting of a Ukrainian girl, made by Nikolay Rachkov. The girl in the picture is very ordinary looking and there are not any aspects which makes it interesting, except the painting job is quite realistic and there is something in the arrangement and the background. I have an impossible itch to meet this person, even though she is from a totally different time period (from the 1800s). I want to say hi to her, because in the painting she looks alive and well, even though she has been dead long before my time. I would like to ask, to know, what kind of person she is. What does she like to do or what is there to do in that time period in a Slavic realm? Is she ordinary or is there magic, which makes the world interesting to travel.
I watched a movie from 1978, The Panic in Needle Park, starring Al Pacino and Kitty Winn. Watching Kitty Winn has the same effect as in the painting of Ukrainian Girl. Kitty Winn is kind of a very ordinary looking woman, a talented actress no doubt, but her face has this charm, which reminds me of what life is all about. More fire to the woods is the fact that she stopped acting a long time ago and she "traded" her career to raising a family. She got what she wanted. She started her family almost the same age that I am today, and it brings out the same urges as the painting. I need to meet her just to get my reality right. What kind of person she is. Was the long time in a marriage and raising a family really worth it. What did she do on a daily basis? Was it like running on a treadmill, having ordinary things to do and relying on routines? Was it safer to have an ordinary life than having a flash in a film star career? There are lots more trivial questions to ask to map what kind of person she is.
Here i am, painting my miniature figures, drawing with wooden pencils, 3d modeling and doing all sorts of graphics. What is the point in that? I have never really achieved anything professionally, even though I am pretty good at what I do, although there are thousands as talented and skilled as/than I am. So it does not matter am i recognized or not, because there are lots more other people doing exactly same thing, some succeeding and some dont. That is life, little bit of luck and effort, and still all that is forgotten when time passes and u die with ur identity.
Looking to the future, when i am as old as Kitty Winn is today, when i know that time has gone and wondering backwards, did the life was worth it. It is depressing to think that far or near in the future, u have reached the end, and u are thinking of this moment now thinking of the future and what is possible to achieve.
I am now going to watch Lethal Weapon 4, just to sink all complex complications and emotions into a meaningless, empty entertainment.
Sunday, September 25, 2022
A Way Out
A Way Out
An important man walks hurriedly into a faintly lighted room. The doors are slammed open as the president of the United States of America enters. All the other people noticed the entry and are glad the president made it in time. The other people are some important decision-makers from around the world, representing people of the free world, which geographically means mainly USA and EU. This meeting is a final place of freedom, a getaway of reason. At the middle of the room is an altar, made of artifacts from earliest civilizations like Sumer and perhaps earlier, through Greek and christian realities. All of the treasures are the key components to a fairly complex religious apparatus. At the middle of the altar is a ribcage, which is surrounded by two broken stone slabs, a wooden cup and various other strange things from Judaism, Buddhism, etcetera. Most of the people in the room do not know what they are, except a couple archeologists, scientists and theologians.
The President of the USA promptly encourages scientists to put the show on the road as soon as possible, and they did. A scientist walks towards the altar with a transparent tube, which holds a black material, a tiny dot, between two strong magnets. The scientist slams the tube to the ribcage and the black dot starts to levitate above and center of the altar. Little bit of shaking, which reminds of a mild earthquake, puts the room under stress and starts to worry people with no knowledge of what is going to happen next. The black dot merges with the ribcage and rises from the altar. The other religious artifacts follow the lead and start to circulate the ribcage. Inhumanly bright light emerges from the altar and fills the room. When the light recedes, all the people in the room see that the artifacts are gone, but there is a white hole, reminiscent of a tear, which emits a bright white light, just at the same position where the rib cage was. People can not believe what they are seeing, and are more confused when an arm comes out from the tear, which resembles a human arm. The hand straightens out a finger. Scientists are hurrying after one another, towards the hand and all of them touch the finger with their own fingertips. Soon all the people in the room followed the example. The last one is the President and he touches the finger tip from the tear. Everybody starts to see their body to dim, and it frightens some people to the limits of insanity. Scientists start to calm em down, but it does not matter, because it has already started. Everybody vanished, except two persons, a man and a woman, who hysterically watches everybody gone. The hand pulls in from the tear and the tear closes, leaving these two people alone in an empty dim room. It takes 10 seconds of silence, before the room is filled with a firestorm, and a massive explosion. The explosion is the size of Nebraska, leaving a massive crater at Nebraska, center of the America. The blue firestorm follows the massive explosion, covering the entire USA, leaving no nooks alone.
World War 3 began in Ukraine, eastern Europe, where Slavs fought mainly amongst themselves. It was a conflict of proxy war, where the west supported western values, while the east wanted their influence to conquer whole Ukraine and eventually whole Europe. USA supported vastly western Ukraine with massive arms raise, without taking part in the conflict directly. Russia was the one who started the whole theatre with self-interest, and tried to purge western boundary further to the west. When the conflict started, the world was instantly divided into two parties, east and west. It took over a year to deepen conflict, meaning opposite values started to accumulate to greater forces and interests. World was split into two coalitions; The Rationality and The Juggernauts. The Juggernauts call people of The Rationality as Rats, and The Rationality calls The Juggernauts as Jugs, an empty cup. Rats mainly consist of Northern America, EU, Australia and small parts in Asia. Jugs is a coalition of nations from the darkest corners of the earth, consisting of a politically corrupt world, including people with decades and centuries marinated in misguided values in life and warped reality of the world, seeking only self-interests. The world was soon on fire and all out war was in every continent.
The main theatre was in Europe, but great frontiers were in the South China Sea, Bering Sea, Africa, Australia, and covert operations happened even places most people did not know existed. Jugs intelligence service surveyed the massive explosion in Norhern America, which some experts concluded as a nuclear strike, but nobody has seen as massive size strike, or capable device exist, not even in their dreams, ever. Most baffling aspect was how it happened in the heart of the enemy territory as such an unexpected event. Actually nobody was expecting anything like that would happen, not even in intelligence services at the Jugs camp, not as such an convenient event, which would solve the war decisively for Jugs. Nobody claimed it in any parts of the army of Jugs, not even terrorist groups, but they concluded it by resolving that Rats had enough and just gave up everything, maybe because unexpected morale drop internally, or by some unknown terrorist group inside the heartland. Rats frontiers collapsed to the last man and the world turned red and black, and Jugs celebrated the successful campaign. The world was theirs, the future would serve a platform for self-interest and impudence for the most bold and pervert minds, who would do anything for themselves and forget others. The forces of Jugs started to invade Northern America and they had a surprise waiting at the ashes.
The gigantic explosion and the blue firestorm left a desert of ashes to its wake. All the forests, foliage, undergrowth, bodies of water, animali from big to small, even bacteria and fungi, were all annihilated. Jugs frontier advancing and their science division realized it as they entered the Northern American land. The burnt trees were just stalks of ashes, animal skeletons were littered everywhere and all the waters were just empty hollow bowls of steam, like it was the last breath of life. But there was more, there were human survivors, mostly with extensive scalds, but somehow they managed to survive. That is the the another reason which baffles the scientist and intelligence services left on earth: how did they managed to survive, when all other life is gone around them, even structures of cities are just piles ashes in a shape of former existences as the never seen before heat from the explosion completely wrecked them. Turns out that all people left behind were the scum from the deepest barrel from their former society: criminals, narcissists, psychopaths, sociopaths, murderers, pedophiles, etcetera, and the whole spectrum of vanity from tiny to big, were there, naked and burned, trying to survive in the land of the dead. Something had happened to them though, through the blue firestorm; They would not die. Some of them surely managed to embed and manipulate themselves to a new fold of the new world order, and they fit perfectly. Some, though, the worst could not help themselves and gave up to their inner beasts and tried to run through a bullet wall to maul their new victims, but only died and their weak human bodies were left there to rot. But these beasts would later get promoted, not in Jugs company, but elsewhere.
The invading forces reached the massive crater at the center of USA. The whole astronomical formation was an absurd sight, since it was all glassed down, but the site was not as deep as its diameter would suggest. Its depth in the deepest point was only 100 meters deep. Meanwhile scientist tried to understand the anomalies all over the former USA and Canada, when the occupying mass really started to settle in and study their new died world, something more absurd started to happen. First sightings described the absurdities at random locations as tears that started to open from nowhere in mid-air, emitting bright pungent red light, and they would expand as a tear would occur in a sheet of paper. They grew and grew, and the red light could not be observed by anything vision protective from weld masks to highly advanced laser protections or augmenting apparatus. All the vision enhancers would just fry and burn. Sightings of tears started to multiply rapidly, so their locations could be seen from space by a bare eye. There was a moment, when the multiplying appeared to halt, but from a ground view, anywhere you might be, you could only see endless sea of red light, which could not be viewed by a mortal eye. Only way to avoid the light was to go kneeling down, put your head to the ground, cover it with your arms so your eyes would be hidden and protected. Only way to protect your eyes were to look at the burnt, ashen ground. Not even a human body from another could stop lights.
It appeared that the whole invading Jugs insertion were there to kneel as they tried to protect their eyes. Headquarters in another continents and entities observing the situations, tried to understand and connect the lights, tears and total collapse of the whole army to a one rational thought. There was not any. Then it appeared that so called walkers started to emerge from the tears, the things with a rotting human body looking like a 1000 year old mummified corpse, walked endlessly and appeared not to be violent creatures in nature. The problem would come later when these creatures contaminate living things in their wake with diseases never heard or existed, like a unknown type of plague which would go rapidly through a body, leaving behind a pulsating bubbling dead corpse. There was no apparent end to the emerging creatures from tears, and the North America looked like a seething hive of ants to a observer in a far away in space. The emergent event was so vastly continuous, that there were mountains of walking, slithering undead creatures, which soon reached oceans in every beach, and they just walked into the water. They either walked on the bottom or floated like driftwood on the ocean. One noticeable thing was that these rotting corpses blocked the bright red light, so some remaining military forces managed to regain their stance momentarily to fire a shot or two to an approaching tidal wave of walking corpses.
… To be continued.
Tuesday, December 28, 2021
State of the Music
The sample above sums up the state of the art in the music industry. When the music itself is extremely artificial and tedious, it is required to advertise/promote and redeem the lack of ingenuity with revealing imagery. This usually shows up in female artists (i dont pay attention to male music videos) with clingy clothing, which shows enough flesh that the viewer arousal overdrives the actual musical experience. When the viewer sees the prettiness, a little bit arse cheeks, some great curves, combined with seductive movement routines, it suddenly appeals for the audience as great music. This is why pop-music is popular.
Why not to dump the useless music and clothing and just make a pornographic material? Or can we keep the music and combine it with an undressed singer, so everybody can see was the seduction worth it at all and people get what they actually came here for. Viewers see the nipples and all sorts of holes and shrubbery down there and it comes back to the actual music when everything is revealed and the attention is channeled correctly.
The next sample shows the same artist as an older version, which means that the same music is in the background, but the artist wears a tent hiding it all which made the performance in the first clip. Why? Her body is no more viral? Isnt the female body a female body in whatever condition? Looking at her legs below the tent, she might have gone fat, but why does it matter? I bet that beneath the tent, there is a pair of tits and down there some shrubbery and couple holes. What is the moral standard/question between these two clips? A shame or maturity? I bet a shame. U can see all the plastic surgery around all sorts of celebrities, when they try to hide their aging from shame.
When the body loses its alluring weight, all that is left is just the carcass of a song. Would it have been better to develop the song some more and preserve some dignity, than to cash out fast with a poor song and once beautiful body? Pop-music is about all sorts of cheeks in MTV-generation and onwards era as we call it primarily as attention seeking.
Saturday, December 25, 2021
Battlefield 2042
My take on Battlefield 2042 in EA forums:
"Hi.
I don't know why I am writing this garbage, because I know EA/Dice does not listen. Maybe I am miserable and sad, or maybe I have a slight hope for 2042, but it is also vanishing when I realize the game is turning sour with every patch. I have been playing video-games since 80s and i have seen lot of sh*t. Battlefield 2042 is one of the worst Battlefield entries there is, because it looks like it does not have any aspiration. IMO one reason is that it represents the Bad Company and COD generations. Battlefield 2 was a magical experience, even though it was buggy, but was extremely fun to play. Then the BC2 came around, and it was the bad turning point, mainly because the map designs were small, tight and flat, including chokepoints and design which forced the player to go head to lead. After BF2, that was very disappointing, and it echoes through ages to 2042 and players playing it.
Tactics:
In 2042 Breakthrough, ally players are always behind a capture point or just hanging around it, while the other capture point is captured by the enemy and usually the match is over at that point. This example is the most common thing in Euro servers. There is probably one guy from a squad going around the cap zone, trying to cut the enemy intrusion and besiege the enemy infested cap zone, but this does not work if there is one or two guys facing 5 to 20 enemies. I am not trying to be old and stiff sod, because hey kids can have their headless chicken experience, but as far as i remember the game was advertised as all-out-warfare, which it is not. Honestly, I don't know how to teach people to use brain cells and L2P. Maybe the game should enforce and encourage the tactical experience and decisions, which is rewarded somehow. Forget the COD; Not everything, which is successful in the game market, needs to be redone in every franchise. Put in a commander, which could orchestrate the field and put in some tactical objectives which are rewarded for troops when doing them.
What are weapons made from:
In common sense, weapons do NOT have a damage model. Bullets are ones which cause damage. Some can argue, what if bullets are filed, what shape it does have, what casing there is ... and honestly, i don't know what or how many bullet models there is in the world, and i think it is not relevant to the game design in that great perspective, and the idea needs to be simplified for the game. For a game, there could be only 3 classes of bullets: Small are for pistols and submachine guns, medium are for assault rifles and carbines, and biggest are for rifles and machine guns. Each class has their respective damage. Shooting with a sniper rifle or machine gun, does not have any difference per bullet.
Then we are coming to the argument about different weapons, which all affect greatly and differently to the bullet damage (in real life). I don't think the developers have any idea either, because guns are imbalanced and behave irrationally. Some are just useless and some are just overly popular. This could be tested in the R&D in EA/Dice headquarters. In there, developers could round up some executives, game designers, studio directors and everybody who made 2042. Reveal their butt cheeks, put on blindfolds and earmuffs. Take let say two sub-machine guns in real life, for example Uzi and Mp5 (which i don't have any idea what they actually are), in 5 meters, one a$$ cheek takes a hit from the Uzi and other from MP5, and ask the test subjects, can they identify the difference from the pain. If they can decisively identify which gun was which, then I was wrong. If they can not, the correlation between guns and bullets does not matter in game design wise. To notify everybody delicate, THIS WAS NOT A THREAT.
Bullets do the damage and guns only possess how they behave and affect trajectory/ballistics. NO, okay.
I try to reason about the subject with a sniper rifle and a machine gun. In 2042, a shot to the head from a sniper rifle kills instantly in any distance. With a machine gun (LMG), you can not make a kill from a head shot with one bullet, because machine guns are designed to spray rounds around and sniper rifles are the comic book version of camping. If you meet a sniper as far as 300 meters and you start to shoot him with a machine gun, he could easily eat 50 rounds to make a kill, while a sniper has easy time to retaliate and make a kill from one bullet to the head. Maybe i'm a bad shot or i can not understand the logic or i won't understand the design or i refuse to understand the cartoon. Are people happy with this? Since BF2 guns made no sense, but BF2 had way better maps (Infantry only in Karkand as an example).
Next subject is why snipers are always pampered, while they are doing nothing constructive? Is it enough that there are dozens of snipers around the map just for attraction to opportunistic behavior. If you are having blasting time with fellow enemies, there is always a sniper ruining the experience for both sides, either stealing a kill or killing. Can they be limited to, like 1 sniper per side, or make the sniper gameplay a little bit more challenging. I have played my time with a sniper, and all i can say it is the easiest "class" there is. U just sit down and try to make easy kills from a safe distance. From a bullet damage perspective, can a sniper rifle do the same damage as a machine gun bullet does, since they practically shoot the same size bullet? If this is disputed, it can always be tested with the butt cheek test.
Another swell time for opportunists are vehicles. Is it possible to have an infantry mode? Of course not. Can helicopters go to base like refueling and stock up their rockets, instead spraying them around like no pause. Could the vehicle controls be more sophisticated? Can battle tanks lose fuel, when camping behind their own lines?
Random questions:
Why are squad sizes only 4? Ought to be more? Why are squads dismantled after a match? Why is there no proper scoreboard? Why are maps basically bowls and plains? Why are there no more foliage and all sorts of stuff on a ground in 128 player matches? Why are there heroes with the most embarrassing voice lines after every match? Can there be faceless soldiers like there were in BF2? Why are there an overwhelming amount of repetitive intros and video materials before the actual match starts? Why is 2042 all over the place? What is going wrong in the studio? Who is in charge of the development? Can pencil pushers and people, who only know how to use credit cards and look at the revenue from excel spreadsheet, be fired or transfered to a room where they cannot affect the actual development? Can a master developer/designer be a guy who knows games from like the 70s to this day, and has played and seen a lot? Have these questions circulated already? I am a bonehead? Is there life in outer space? Did Klaus Barbie's life in South-America make any sense?"
Sunday, December 5, 2021
The Thing 2: Skynet
The Thing 2: Skynet
(Unofficial) Sequel to John Carpenter's The Thing.
Updated: 27.02.2024
~ Consider consulting these. Added: 27.02.2024
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e598iQjvIz8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6kc1ErYWAF8
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After the events in Antarctica, where only survivors were MacReady and Childs, and apparently the thing, catastrophe escalated globally not so soon, but at an ominous pace. Nobody knows what happened to MacReady, but at some point multiple sightings were made in Argentina and Antarctica in mysterious circumstances. Childs corpse was found where it was left in the ruins of U.S. Outpost 31. When all communications were restored to Antarctica, but no contacts were possible to make to American Outpost and Norwegian bases, small rescue missions started to evolve including military and intelligence services. Both countries discovered total annihilation of their establishments, which caused severe global efforts to find out what happened, and it all started to appear in the news globally. Unwanted parties wanted to take part to the mystery, and soon both bases were fortified with heavy military operations. When the governments found the derelict alien spacecraft, the whole continent was put on hold for ultra classified operations. Every unauthorized penetrations to Antarctica were subject to be destroyed.
When people of earth were puzzled with the mystery for several months, the assimilating alien lifeforms started to infest the human population in a very discreet manner, because it knew what people can do when they are angry. Who knows how the thing got to Argentina or elsewhere? Or to the sea and its life? Or was it transported to a secret military base somewhere? The rumor has it that it somehow reached a densely populated area, and started to infest people under poverty, because possibly it was the easiest route to distribute infections. When first remarks started to pile up, and somebody started to make connections that something very bad is happening everywhere, that people are disappearing and appearing, some are found dead, but are alive a little while. People are behaving weirdly, there is a massive amount violence throughout the whole planet. Chaos soon reigns, and nobody trusts anybody anymore. Some intelligence services put things together, that it is probably a disease that got out from Antarctica, and it is probably extraterrestrial, but at this point everything was too late. Military forces collapsed internally, institutions shot down and governments were paralyzed, mainly because the alien lifeform infiltrated these cornerstones and just shot them down.
When humanity was in chaos, and nobody knew who was an enemy or who was a friend, an ominous rumor was circulating that some brain eating disease is endemic, the thing already knew the endgame is at large, and it did not try to hide anymore. It blatantly just ate everybody, every race, every species, on the ground, in the sky and under the sea. It filled the fertile grounds with pulsating living tissue, devouring every surviving creature, leaving a wasteland of horrors from millions of mutated lifeforms from millions of worlds from outer space. Some people were transformed to horrendous wanderers, who acted as destroyers of life and were called cultists, who willingly donated their body for immortality and greater cause of the thing. Skies were filled with abominable flying creatures with no apparent shapes, but screeching continuously otherworldly noises. Sea water was replaced with a pus and some other secretions from the spread, hiding only the meanest lurking planetary creatures to ambush anything little or big. Looking from space, the whole planet was a living organism with a pulse. It is possible to tell that some veins are as thick as a thousand kilometers. Tentacles and bony edges are reaching the space and moon. But, there is an exception, that the thing hates, and it is excessive heat and deserts.
Under all major deserts are secret installations of AI technology, which is activated when total annihilation is happening, and it is meant to act as a force of vengeance or resurrection. This force is named as Skynet, a most brilliant piece of technology from humans to preserve humanity and resurrect life. It contains genetic constructs of every living lifeform on earth. The spearhead of the Skynet is the ability to fabricate armies of robotic entities, mainly to enforce the order. Skynet built Terminators, infiltration units with living tissue outside, but metallic endoskeleton inside, and is very hard to destroy when it is armed with a 40-watt Phased Plasma Pulse Rifle. This was the age of endless war, the war of soft and hard.
The armies of steel started to emerge from deserts. With energy weapons and flamethrowers, they incinerated vast fields of abominable flesh and tissues. First, the steel legion did not encounter any major opposition, but only random transformations of creatures and structures with ability to rush and slash with their tentacles, teeth and horns. It did not last long though when the hive mind caught up with the sense of the war, and they started to produce more sophisticated weaponry from their own, but also from salvaged Terminators. Soon the war got into the position of equilibrium, where fronts changed back and forth and madness just swelled around without apparent results or victories, and it lasted for ages.
In the beginning of all out warfare in every front, the battles were fought through bone and steel. The skynet started to produce Terminators with replication of alien tissue outside, so they would appear as minions of the thing. These commando units traveled long distances to sabotage enemy infrastructures. Skynet figured out how the alien lifeform replicates and sustains life of its own. What genetic makeup it possesses on its own. What organs it needed and what liquids were essential to support the vast regions of tissues. Infiltrators found a heart, which size in diameter was approximately 500 kilometers. They rigged it with a device, which introduced poison to the bloodstream, and it necrotized and paralyzed great amount of enemy territory, which was a great opening for Skynet to strike with a conventional force.
The thing had its own secret laboratories where it used its knowledge from its crusades in outer space to develop strange technologies involving its tissue based technology, but also some more sophisticated varied constructions from exotic materials. First its creations was old school EMP, which was used extensively to shut down vast armies of enemy robots.
To be continued.
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Upcoming next:
How Skynet R&D managed to map the alien cellular structure and functions? Life on earth contains pretty much similar cellular structure, be it plant, fungi or animal. A human cell consists of cell organs and nucleus. Inside a nucleus, there are chromosomes, which contain genes constructed from pairs of DNA between double strands. Genes contain the code for cellular behavior and what proteins they produce.
The alien cellular structure is quite different from anything on earth. One cell adapts to the size of the target lifeforms cells. The Things cells contain multiple organs and hundreds of nuclei. Inside a nucleus, there are no chromosomes or genes, but a neural network type structure made from exotic metallic and quartz materials conducting electric currency and reflecting prismatic light. Their core function in its memory is to locate adjacent cells, and assimilate their structures, in this case cell genes and functions. All these are stored in the neural network and replicated to other cells in rapid cell division. When cell division happens, the neural networks interconnect with other cells, forming a massive size of memory, containing cellular data from millions of lifeforms of millions of other worlds. When this connection is interrupted, The Thing entity is usually contracting to a shock, which practically means that the mimicked organism is paralyzed or “dead”, at least for the time it actually starts to make connections again. This is why flames and extreme cold are bad for The Thing. Flames and extreme heat shatters the cells and their harmonious connections, while the cold hinders the activity of the organic parts of the outer cell structures, practically meaning, the cell cannot “move” and function. But the hard parts inside the alien cell contain enough energy to jump start the cell activity, when the right environmental conditions happen again. Practically the electric currency and prismatic light can sustain the “pulse” for an eternity, because the structures are fine tuned to an equilibrium. Unless the cell's organic outer shell and the inside nucleus is not shattered, the cell will always recover. This is important, because if one cell manages to survive in a pile of ashes, and it manages somehow to survive through icy conditions for millions of years, when, let say, a polar balance changes, it is possible that this small cell can find its target host somewhere else, again.
Even though The Thing's ability to adapt and transform rapidly to practically anything imaginable is as fast ever seen in the entire universe, it cannot do changes in the blink of an eye, because it is after all about manipulating an actual material, not tuning a television. This is why, in surprising events, The Thing appears to take extremely incoherent and random forms, usually a mix of different organisms from its memory.
There is also another aspect to the insides of The Things cells. The prismatic light refraction inside a nucleus allows a material to be manipulated in 4th dimension. This dimensional vector permits the material to travel through space and time. Somehow Skynet managed to construct the data from The Things cells nucleuses, making the machines able to travel through time and to other places in the universe. Skynet builds interstellar spacecrafts, to visit worlds consumed by The Thing and find more resources from places never visited before to keep the war going on on earth. Soon the space crafts hauled massive amounts of minerals from outer worlds.
Another important thing about The Things cellular connectivity is when there is an ability to travel through space and time, the opening in 4th dimension allows cells to be connected through this “mirror”, which means that they can be connected far away even though they do not share the same local substance. The connectivity does not limit only to space and time, but also dimensions. Some theories suggest that The Thing is some sort of a spawn of “God”, traveling through realms to bring in the final judgment. Some theories suggest that The Thing is some sort of interdimensional accident that happened when the universe or different dimensional realities were born. Other analyses suggest that The Thing was raised in some sort of “Petri dish” by some perverted race in vanity, similar to The Engineers, who were the original, eventual cause of the Xenomorph outbreak.
Tuesday, February 2, 2021
World Of Comedy
From an empirical point of view:
Charles Chaplin
Peter Sellers (The master of characters. It is pure joy to see him work.) -> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xza6k8X_RRg
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Robin Williams -> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LcSKrOlnofk
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John Belushi
Benny Hill
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Leslie Nielsen
Sacha Baron Cohen
Steve Martin
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Saturday, December 26, 2020
Forrest Gump did not hear anything
Why i generally dont like pop rock music? Mostly because every popular tune, for example from America, is overly sappy, lacking the sharp cutting edge. Take example of Fleetwood Macs "Go Your Own Way" and "Little Lies", which both sound "good", but also very cheesy, like songs are written in one sitting based on one simple idea and melody, compressed in 3 minutes. When u though you like the main melody and begin to grind it, after 10 rounds it starts to worn out of energy and become boring, and u start to develop severe headache. Every single main pop song has this same flaw, too simple, too easy. This is why i dont like American pop culture. For example Forrest Gump is very good dissection to American pop culture in general, but when i hear Fleetwood Mac in some point in the movie when Gump is running his run, i almost lose my mind when i realize how shallow whole movie actually is.
I had serious problems in my teen years finding actual music besides classical music, and spent nightless nights scouring the internet numbing my mind in pop music, but also finding the actual jewel class of music, progressive house, which in some tunes, is actually comparable to brilliance of classical music. Other popular music genres i hate are metal and hip-hop. Those are quite comparable to regular pop-rock how toothless some genres are, but every mass has its redeemer.
There are only 2 samples where metal music is dangling to a single individual hair:
Rap music pretty much is summed up to the brilliance of:
While pop/rock is anyway lost, we can always try cradle to:
Tuesday, December 15, 2020
Commodore (CBM) scrapbook
This is a scrapbook dedicated to Commodore, its products and culture around it.
Jack Tramiel:
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David John Pleasance was one of managers in Commodore (CBM), and lived/lives pretty magnificent life. U can order the book (Commodore – The Inside Story), which will illustrates Davids life during Commodore era and around it. Great great reading.
https://davidpleasance.com
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C= magazine was Finnish publication for Commodore related stuff. This magazine is only in Finnish language.
http://amiga.unikko.org/C-lehti/
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Bil Herd was an engineer in Commodore and has interesting inside stories from an engineer perspective.
https://www.youtube.com/user/BilHerd
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Some random stuff:
Wednesday, November 18, 2020
Career opportunities (Not the movie)
An example of how i ended up to a graphics designer. I was in vocational institute, where i studied information technology. The class was full of nerds and poseurs, very few were real deal. My turning point from programmer to graphics was the one time when i poked an ant colony. There was this trio of clowns from Kaarina, a place near Turku Finland, who practically were bullies. They bullied one guy mostly, who were once my friend. I decided to balance odds by drawing a caricature one of their blokes. I never understood what they tried to be or achieve, but i remember they all wore similar clothes, drove similar mopeds, who knows they maybe masturbated together, i dont know, but my point was they were classical example of freaks. One of them was tall and skinny, bug-eyed guy, looked like Gollum, who tried to be a bad ass. One of them was silent like Bob and resembled a duck. The last one was real nerve wreck, who probably suffered from extremely bad self-confidence.
I made a caricature of the nerve wreck, and his face in the drawing was just absurd, but quite accurate. When the nerve wreck saw the picture, he totally lost his mind and grabbed me like he was attacking, but in the end he had no balls to do anything, and practically ran away from the class like he was on fire. Later i heard at guidance counselor that he was complaining that i was bringing bad atmosphere to the class, while i said that he was a total bully. There was no consequences or anything, but i received an enlightenment. I have never ever got so much pleasure and joy from somebody in person, who i ripped and teared apart in mind and soul. I felt just powerful and dominant, when i realized that the little drawing made him lose total self-control and sanity, i just saw the path in front of me, where i should go and aim in life. Small things can have greater meanings.
Friday, October 9, 2020
Nocturnal Animals (2016)
The story is about ex-lovers, who cant evolve past the past. In one end is the airhead, Susan, who is never satisfied in her life, whatever she chooses or does. She is a drifter. She broke up with the other end, the weakling Edward, who cannot go on with his life after 20 years and still holds a grudge against Susan.
Edward sends a thriller novel to Susan, which practically is a manifestation about feelings/process he went through when Susan broke up with him and she made abortion of his child. The novel is a very serious story and is absolutely great. It is brilliant how the story intertwines together the fictional novel and the reality.
What bothers me the most is the ending, which does not feel immersive. Questions: Was Edward really that weak, that he had to write the novel to express himself and to prove Susan his writing skills? And after 20 years he is still a mess? Was the revenge, leaving Susan at the restaurant, the best possible retribution? He made her love him again, but was that a sufficient punishment?
Both characters are overly immature. I know people in the real world, who are actually this level childish and bitter, who cannot mature enough to let go. From basic psychological understanding, I would have laughed my butts of the bench if somebody tried to pull this on me, like sending an emotional manifestation and then leaving me at a restaurant. Wow, what a comeback, and very forceful revenge.
For movie stand point, the story should have gone beyond the current revenge barrier, maybe more brutal, tragic and violent, maybe going into the horror genre. Maybe some corpses or more psychological torment. I know Susan was not worth it, but neither was Edward. Dumb people (characters), but excellent movie. Well written and masterfully constructed. This was a very pleasant surprise. I liked the cop most, who was more real than anything.
Saturday, September 19, 2020
Game Industry
My passion is games, not only video-games, but all sorts of games. I observe the world through game mechanics, and one can say that life is a game, a kind of brutal action adventure rpg, where there is only one death and zero respaws. It could be a limitation of our perspective in life, that what happens past death is up to the imagination of individuals to have hope for continuity after death. Primary consensus is that death is final and the identity is shredded so new life has an opportunity to change the playground with fresh ideas.
Video-games are the thriving form of interactive entertainment, which has been upcoming and developed rapidly since the 70s. Corporations can have over 100 developers in a team while the 2k era is trending indie development.
I have always wanted to make video-games, but not only some games, but my designs. My passion does not lie on corporate structure, although i dont care what structure is behind a development as far as the project is healthy and developing. I have tried to do games in varied projects and in my solo projects, so far all failed. In a team i have found that if the team has no fertile synergy, or some part of the machine is malfunctioning, the project is in grave danger to fail. That is why i wont ever again take part to a development where i am not in the lead. I need a team of developers under my design and command to make my dreams true. It might sound toxic, but of course team can function normally in their pits, and i wouldnt hold people back, as long as the direction is right. Yes, i want to be a director. I have experience from lots of games and i know what game designs are boring and impotent. I even know pretty fast how to develop ideas further from existing ideas.
Case example could be making new 3d fps in Mega Man X universe using almost the same gameplay elements from Doom Eternal. With the right team and direction, the result would be glorious, and finally the Mega Man X franchise would rise from ashes in a new refreshing package. This is a primary example of professional game designing in a nutshell.
I have tried to make my own games in a solo project using high-end engine like Unreal Engine. What problems i have found is that the project wont develop fast enough, because of the need to maintain some quality. When the development is staggering, motivation is diving and development stalling. It does not make sense to make a project if it cant reach the certain quality pillars in my mind, and it is not even considered to lower standards, because that would definitely hurt my pride and unmotivate further. I would rather not to do any games if the visuals or gameplay implementations are unreachable by myself. This is why i want a team. A team is key to success and i dont want to make a game which looks like a one man job. But i dont want a team consisting unpassionate workers or some corporate climbers, and least some suit producers who have no vision whatsoever and i have to answer these people.
In short, i am not passionate enough to make a game alone. I am also allergic to people who doesnt earn my respect. Why waste life making a game alone when it would never reach certain qualities/standards. I cant program or use tools efficiently, because i guess i lack intelligence. I am also fed up with shovel working in graphics, because i have done it a lot and someone who likes to do it should do it instead of me, so i could focus on drawing horizons and big lines. Why search development team, when all resources are behind suits and corporate bureaucracy, which are irrelevant to game development. How to tell a suit about visions if he probably dont know what i am talking about. In other hand, if there is a suit in game industry who knows lots about games, why would he spare time for me, when he has rush to do his own projects.
Indie development has lots of versatility to offer to make a project, and maybe scouring the Internet would help finding right people. Am i really interested to have that much trouble to dig a bottomless pit when all the greatness that indie game development has offered is in the form of Minecraft. Do i really want to be that muppet? All i can think of is that either u go big with a professional team or stay on the sidelines playing video-games and enjoying life in its simplicity.
Saturday, October 19, 2019
Ejaculation Meter
Best looking women in the world at their prime.
This list presents entries in the ejaculation scale and with a ranking, concentrating to faces. Ranking X means to be determined later. Point of the list is to show that modern day standard of beauty is ill looking, for example film stars big bulky (bug-eyed) eyes, facial structures squeezed to small area of the face without any direction of classical beauty. Or some celebrities looking dull, mean or immature.
1. Jennifer Connelly
She has the most exquisite bonestructure in her face, completed with perfect finish of flesh and skin. Her features are precisely in absolute and astoundingly perfect positions, giving her warm and compelling appearance, were she smiling or not. She does not look evil or bitchy, but kind and welcoming. Pure perfection.
As a sidenote, she is the only one ever in the entire human population who i could consider dating or having children with, partially just because i assume she has a good personality.
Proof: Career Opportunities (1991).
Ejaculation meter: 10.
Ranking: Definitive and only no. 1.
X. Tuesday Weld
She has foxy facial features, in the sense of absolute cuteness and warmth.
Proof: 60s and 70s.
Ejaculation meter: 10.
Ranking: X.
X. Grace Kelly
She looks always happy and beaming. Facial features in perfect positions.
Proof: Rear Window (1954).
Ejaculation meter: 10.
Ranking: X.
X. Julianne Moore
Eternal beauty.
Proof: Boogie Nights (1997).
Ejaculation meter: 10.
Ranking: X.
X. Mary Elizabeth Winstead
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Proof: The Thing (2011).
Ejaculation meter: 10.
Ranking: X.
X. Monica Bellucci
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Proof: Dobermann (1997).
Ejaculation meter: 10.
Ranking: X.
X. Lois Chiles
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Proof: Creepshow 2 (1987).
Ejaculation meter: 9.
Ranking: X.
X. Sharon Stone
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Proof: Total Recall (1990).
Ejaculation meter: 9.
Ranking: X.
X. Linda Kozlowski
Tempting and mature looking face.
Proof: Crocodile Dundee (1986).
Ejaculation meter: 9.
Ranking: X.
X. Kathleen Turner
Beauty of the 80s. Shen can look mean and dominating, but also switch to sweetheart.
Proof: Romancing the Stone (1984).
Ejaculation meter: 9.
Ranking: X.
X. Rachel Weisz
Her smile.
Proof: The Mummy (1999).
Ejaculation meter: 9.
Ranking: X.
X. Sherilyn Fenn
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Twin Peaks (TV Series).
Ejaculation meter: 8.
Ranking: X
X. Debbie Harry
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60s.
Ejaculation meter: 8.
Ranking: X.
X. Janet Leigh
Burning icy stare.
Proof: Psycho (1960).
Ejaculation meter: 8.
Ranking: X.
X. Kate Beckinsale
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Proof: Pearl Harbor (2001).
Ejaculation meter: 8.
Ranking: X.
X. Jessica Alba
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Proof: Machete (2010).
Ejaculation meter: 8.
Ranking: X.
X. Kristanna Loken
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Proof: Terminator 3: Rise of the Machines (2003).
Ejaculation meter: 8.
Ranking: X.
X. Mila Kunis
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Proof: Black Swan (2010).
Ejaculation meter: 8.
Ranking: X.
X. Courteney Cox
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Proof: Masters of the Universe (1987).
Ejaculation meter: 8.
Ranking: X.
X. Kelly Preston
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Proof: Christine (1983).
Ejaculation meter: 7.
Ranking: X.
X. Andrea Anders
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Proof: Joey (TV Series).
Ejaculation meter: 7.
Ranking: X.
X. Kirsten Dunst
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Proof: Melancholia (2011).
Ejaculation meter: 7.
Ranking: X.
X. Olivia Newton-John
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Proof: Grease (1978).
Ejaculation meter: 6.
Ranking: X.
X. Lauren Graham
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Proof: Bad Santa (2003).
Ejaculation meter: 6.
Ranking: X.
X. Christina Applegate
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Proof: Married with Children (TV Series).
Ejaculation meter: 6.
Ranking: X.
X. Ashley Laurence
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Proof: Hellraiser (1987).
Ejaculation meter: 6.
Ranking: X.
X. Chloë Grace Moretz
Her lips are yummy
Proof: The Equalizer (2014).
Ejaculation meter: 6.
Ranking: X.
X. Tara Reid
The American Pie.
Proof: American Pie (1999).
Ejaculation meter: 5.
Ranking: X.
X. Lindsay Lohan
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Proof: Mean Girls (2004).
Ejaculation meter: 5.
Ranking: X.
X. Rachel McAdams
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Proof: Red Eye (2005).
Ejaculation meter: 4.
Ranking: X.
X. Lisa Eilbacher
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Proof: 10 to Midnight (1983).
Ejaculation meter: 4.
Ranking: X.
X. Barbara Nedeljakova
Way more hotter that Gal Gadot.
Proof: Hostel (2005).
Ejaculation meter: 4.
Ranking: X.
X. Julie Delpy
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Proof: Before Sunrise (1995).
Ejaculation meter: 1.
Ranking: X.
This list presents entries in the ejaculation scale and with a ranking, concentrating to faces. Ranking X means to be determined later. Point of the list is to show that modern day standard of beauty is ill looking, for example film stars big bulky (bug-eyed) eyes, facial structures squeezed to small area of the face without any direction of classical beauty. Or some celebrities looking dull, mean or immature.
1. Jennifer Connelly
She has the most exquisite bonestructure in her face, completed with perfect finish of flesh and skin. Her features are precisely in absolute and astoundingly perfect positions, giving her warm and compelling appearance, were she smiling or not. She does not look evil or bitchy, but kind and welcoming. Pure perfection.
As a sidenote, she is the only one ever in the entire human population who i could consider dating or having children with, partially just because i assume she has a good personality.
Proof: Career Opportunities (1991).
Ejaculation meter: 10.
Ranking: Definitive and only no. 1.
X. Tuesday Weld
She has foxy facial features, in the sense of absolute cuteness and warmth.
Proof: 60s and 70s.
Ejaculation meter: 10.
Ranking: X.
X. Grace Kelly
She looks always happy and beaming. Facial features in perfect positions.
Proof: Rear Window (1954).
Ejaculation meter: 10.
Ranking: X.
X. Julianne Moore
Eternal beauty.
Proof: Boogie Nights (1997).
Ejaculation meter: 10.
Ranking: X.
X. Mary Elizabeth Winstead
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Proof: The Thing (2011).
Ejaculation meter: 10.
Ranking: X.
X. Monica Bellucci
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Proof: Dobermann (1997).
Ejaculation meter: 10.
Ranking: X.
X. Lois Chiles
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Proof: Creepshow 2 (1987).
Ejaculation meter: 9.
Ranking: X.
X. Sharon Stone
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Proof: Total Recall (1990).
Ejaculation meter: 9.
Ranking: X.
X. Linda Kozlowski
Tempting and mature looking face.
Proof: Crocodile Dundee (1986).
Ejaculation meter: 9.
Ranking: X.
X. Kathleen Turner
Beauty of the 80s. Shen can look mean and dominating, but also switch to sweetheart.
Proof: Romancing the Stone (1984).
Ejaculation meter: 9.
Ranking: X.
X. Rachel Weisz
Her smile.
Proof: The Mummy (1999).
Ejaculation meter: 9.
Ranking: X.
X. Sherilyn Fenn
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Twin Peaks (TV Series).
Ejaculation meter: 8.
Ranking: X
X. Debbie Harry
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60s.
Ejaculation meter: 8.
Ranking: X.
X. Janet Leigh
Burning icy stare.
Proof: Psycho (1960).
Ejaculation meter: 8.
Ranking: X.
X. Kate Beckinsale
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Proof: Pearl Harbor (2001).
Ejaculation meter: 8.
Ranking: X.
X. Jessica Alba
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Proof: Machete (2010).
Ejaculation meter: 8.
Ranking: X.
X. Kristanna Loken
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Proof: Terminator 3: Rise of the Machines (2003).
Ejaculation meter: 8.
Ranking: X.
X. Mila Kunis
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Proof: Black Swan (2010).
Ejaculation meter: 8.
Ranking: X.
X. Courteney Cox
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Proof: Masters of the Universe (1987).
Ejaculation meter: 8.
Ranking: X.
X. Kelly Preston
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Proof: Christine (1983).
Ejaculation meter: 7.
Ranking: X.
X. Andrea Anders
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Proof: Joey (TV Series).
Ejaculation meter: 7.
Ranking: X.
X. Kirsten Dunst
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Proof: Melancholia (2011).
Ejaculation meter: 7.
Ranking: X.
X. Olivia Newton-John
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Proof: Grease (1978).
Ejaculation meter: 6.
Ranking: X.
X. Lauren Graham
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Proof: Bad Santa (2003).
Ejaculation meter: 6.
Ranking: X.
X. Christina Applegate
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Proof: Married with Children (TV Series).
Ejaculation meter: 6.
Ranking: X.
X. Ashley Laurence
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Proof: Hellraiser (1987).
Ejaculation meter: 6.
Ranking: X.
X. Chloë Grace Moretz
Her lips are yummy
Proof: The Equalizer (2014).
Ejaculation meter: 6.
Ranking: X.
X. Tara Reid
The American Pie.
Proof: American Pie (1999).
Ejaculation meter: 5.
Ranking: X.
X. Lindsay Lohan
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Proof: Mean Girls (2004).
Ejaculation meter: 5.
Ranking: X.
X. Rachel McAdams
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Proof: Red Eye (2005).
Ejaculation meter: 4.
Ranking: X.
X. Lisa Eilbacher
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Proof: 10 to Midnight (1983).
Ejaculation meter: 4.
Ranking: X.
X. Barbara Nedeljakova
Way more hotter that Gal Gadot.
Proof: Hostel (2005).
Ejaculation meter: 4.
Ranking: X.
X. Julie Delpy
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Proof: Before Sunrise (1995).
Ejaculation meter: 1.
Ranking: X.
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